Sunday, April 03, 2005
Miss Concussed Troll is a teacher, or rather a teacher wanna be. She is facing extreme stress, and she is apparently having serious problems in her mental state. Sometimes she really wonders is she really cut out to teach. All the romanctism she used to has about teaching is all gone as I realise that the students ( not all, thank god!) do not really desire to learn. She can only be good in planning lessons which she thinks will attract the students. But if the students themselves do not desire to learn. What else can be done? What can be done? No matter how well the lesson is planned, as long as there is no classroom management. The students had not learnt at all. This is the fundamental. I dunno what is wrong. I dunno why am I always escaping from things. I should just stand up and face things. Smile in the face of troubles and laugh at them. Grow stronger from the incident. But i cant. I cannot........ I will never...... how to face up to things and get things done. I want to get things done but yet I am wasting time doing "displacement" activities like posting on this blog of mine. Miss Concussed troll is now miss stressed up, pent up, frustrated troll. How can I ever become a teacher? I simply do not understand. Maybe I am not good enuff reallystudents hate me, student do not understand me. Maybe it is because I do not understand them as well. How to................ god bless.
I must find the me, the one whom I know I wanna be ;
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